Steadfast

Steadfast I stand in the world
With certainty I tread the path of life
Love I cherish in the core of my being
Hope I carry into every deed
Confidence I imprint upon my thinking. ~ Rudolf Steiner

 

I’ve reached the point in this pandemic where I’m just not quite sure how I feel anymore.

I’m tired.

I’m overwhelmed.

I’m missing my friends.

I’m excited for these extra moments with my children, which seem like gifts, while at the same time longing for some time alone.

I’m scared, because I’m not quite sure what’s happening with my finances right now.

I’m excited for all the new possibilities in learning, in teaching, in loving. But I’m also tired of the constant novelty and longing for a sense of stability.

And these are just my daily life feelings. These aren’t politics or seeing people I love suffer under the weight of injustice or watching the whole world seem to fall apart. And if I feel this way, how do my children feel? How do the children I teach feel? And so, when I read these words this morning, they were almost like a gift.

Steadfast I stand in the world– not hiding from the world, not shrinking away from it, but right in the middle of it all.

With certainty I tread the path of life– with certainty, surety, and steadfastness I walk those daily roads, even when it feels I must have trod a groove in them by now.

Love I cherish at the core of my being– love for every moment, every child, every new experience.

Hope I carry into every deed– because even though it might not feel like it’s true, someday, this *will* end, and we will be back to the normal hustle and bustle of daily life.

Confidence I imprint upon my thinking– I can do this.

You can, too.

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