I don’t do hospitality well.
I could give all sorts of reasons. With 6 children, the house is always a bit of a mess. And as a single mom (in early childhood education, no less, and currently on disability!) I don’t really have the finances to fancy things up.And I’m not good at keeping things neat anyway. I’m not a very good cook. I don’t have a great sense of home decor and I’m not terribly crafty. I don’t feel like I’m very good at being a hostess. I have trouble keeping things tidy, most because it’s just not very important to me. And I’m an unrepentant introvert, which means I don’t really have a strong motivation to do any of those things.
As I’ve shared before, I’ve been off work on short-term disability since March due to break-through seizures. I can’t tell if my epilepsy is resistant to medication or if I’m just having the most horrible, inconvenient side effects possible before we can tell if the meds would be helpful, but either way, I’m kind of screwed. I’ve been seeing a plethora of doctors and specialists– neurologists, psychiatrists (a lot of the medications used to treat seizure disorders are also used to treat psychiatric conditions like bipolar disorder), my family doc to help coordinate it all, etc, etc, etc and now the children are home from school, so I’m trying to juggle their summer schedule and keep their lives as normal-ish as possible.